I'm in a frustrating place with my mental health symptoms. I am too unstable for community based programs that offer support Monday-Friday between 9 and 5, and I'm too stable for crisis intervention support offered 24 hours a day. My mental health struggle is complex (isn't everyone's?) but right now I am struggling with my... Continue Reading →
Egosyntonic….egodystonic…what?!!!??!
In psychotherapy many behaivours (I prefer to call them symptoms- and will do so from here on out) of mental illnesses are classified as egosyntonic and egodystonic. First of all, what does THAT mean? Well egoSYNTONIC describes symptoms that align with a persons values, self image, or in some way or another benefits or is... Continue Reading →
My eating disorder has helped me survive: While it has tried to kill me
Over my time in treatment I have learned that my eating disorder has helped me cope with trauma and other difficult life experiences. If you've ever struggled with an eating disorder you will know that it is all consuming. Preoccupation with weight, shape, food, exercise etc takes over your brain. Making it really difficult to... Continue Reading →
Let’s Talk About Body Dysmorphia
Personal Experience Not everyone who has body dysmorphia has an eating disorder and not everyone with an eating disorder has body dysmorphia, though it is common for them to occur simultaneously. What is body dysmorphia? Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD) is a debilitating body image disorder that engrosses the minds of individuals, causing them to believe... Continue Reading →
Throwback Thursday; that time I told you more about me
Maybe I’ll tell you a little more about me. I am in recovery from an eating disorder. I have struggled with every symptom in the DSM at one point or another since I was 8 years old. I am currently in my early 30’s. Although I have had a diagnose-able eating disorder since I was... Continue Reading →
Menu Monday
While in treatment I had to keep food records. I have kept these records and have hundreds of meals that meet a basic meal plan. I thought it would be fun to share them with you. I’ll write out the menus and maybe some basic recipes. I will also maybe share some thoughts/feelings I had... Continue Reading →
Throwback Thursday; that time I got Stung in the face by a wasp
That’s not some joke or ploy to get you to read this post. It is true. I got stung in the face by a wasp yesterday. Also, yesterday sucked. It was just a bad day. This time it was all external stuff creating chaos in my life, but it still sucked. So getting stung, by... Continue Reading →
Tips and Tricks on How to Develop an Eating Disorder
before you get on my case about the title of this post; read on. Tip #1: Experience trauma/something difficult Eating Disorders are a way to cope with difficult life experiences. Trauma is trauma as experienced by the individual; there is no cookie cutter for trauma. Parents divorcing, childhood sexual abuse, a close friend moving away,... Continue Reading →
Mid Week Coping Tools and how to eat when not only your mind is against you but also your body…
Here's the thing about restricting and purging...when you've been doing it for a while it actually hurts when you start eating and when you keep it down. Heck - this can happen after a chronic (long term) episode or even after an acute (short term) episode. So not only does your mind work against you... Continue Reading →
Menu Monday. Merry Christmas! and how to deal with appetizer/Christmas parties
It’s Monday again, time for another #menumonday It's also Christmas, so MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS from me to you and yours! While in treatment I had to keep food records. I have kept these records and have hundreds of meals that meet a basic meal plan. I thought it would be fun to share them with... Continue Reading →