What Would (my therapist) Say?

I am struggling. Big time I am suicidal. I am self-harming (something I haven't done in over 10 years) I am slowly? (quickly?) relapsing into my eating disorder. I'm going from recovery focused to ambivalent. I bought a fucking scale today and have already weighed myself more in the past 5 hours than I have... Continue Reading →

Rant

Oh my goodness. I am angry. I understand when the average person is ignorant about eating disorders. I can understand that even my close friends and family sometimes say unhelpful things or triggering things without realizing it. That stuff makes me angry too, sure. But I had an experience on Friday that was so triggering... Continue Reading →

Dating and Recovery

I never thought I, of all people, would be writing a post on dating and recovery. My eating disorder has robbed me of so much in my life, including romantic relationships. Not because I lost a relationship (broke up) as a consequence of my ED (which I know is true for a lot of sufferers... Continue Reading →

Recovery isn’t Linear

I wrote about how learning that recovery isn't linear was one of the Top Ten Things I Learned in Treatment. I have certainly been reminded of that this week. These past couple days really. You see, yesterday was AWFUL. Defeat. Despair. Desperation. I used symptoms all day, and had full intentions to just keep using them.... Continue Reading →

To The Bone

  What kind of recovery blog would this be without my added two cents on the new Netflix release, To The Bone. Probably a much better one. But since  I watched it i figured I might as well post about it. First of all: it's a movie. It's not a documentary or based off a... Continue Reading →

Thinking Traps and Thought Attacks. Part 2

The 6th Unhelpful Thinking Style (Thinking Trap) is Magnification and Minimization: I've also heard this Thinking Trap called the 'binocular trick' because you're either blowing things up (out of proportion) or shrinking them. Magnification, or catastrophising, is blowing things out of proportion, creating absolute despair. This most often occurs when we look at our errors.... Continue Reading →

Selah

Selah is a Hebrew word which means musical interlude. More specifically it means to pause and reflect... Like in a song when there is a musical break, maybe a nifty guitar solo in a rock song or a beautiful serenade of cellos or violas in something more classical. Anyways I have titled this blog post... Continue Reading →

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