Damn it

I'm back. Yes, back to blogging. But fuck, also back in my eating disorder. Buuuut....i'm not actually upset. I'm in that honeymoon period of it where I'm glad to be back. Where the thrill of weight loss excites me. The sneaky-ness is fun. Everything feels controlled. I know it's not. I know where this leads...

Seasonal clothing…my nemesis

I think I have a hundred posts on this topic. Well not really because I think I only have about that many posts on this blog anyway. But, for the sake of dramatic effect, for the HUNDREDTH time, I hate spring time and the clothes that go with it. I live in the Northern Hemisphere,...

Podcast

I made a podcast about unspecified eating disorders for a school assignment. The sound quality isn't great, and the style is a bit choppy, and the more I listen to it the more critical I become...but overall I'm happy enough with it to share with y'all. 🙂 Oh, and there is a 15 second delay...

Yes I still exist

Hi, Guess where I have been for the past, what has it been, 8 months or so? LIVING LIFE! I graduated my second stay in residential back in the summer (Northern hemisphere) and honestly have been living my best life since then. I am so happy and so fulfilled. Don't get me wrong, there has...

Menu Monday

I'm in residential treatment for my eating disorder. Below is a recent meal, with pictures, that we had and I thought I'd share it with you. I hope to do more posts like this. The food here is actually quite good despite all the fear and anxiety attached to that. I hope to do more...

A little update, a panic attack, and a plan for this coming week.

Hi Guys! Today marks the end of my 7th week in residential treatment. I am officially more than half way finished. That's terrifying. Eventually it will be exciting, but for now it is terrifying. I can sum up my experience so far in an analogy I came up with. It's like diving into the deep...

This blog might be a bit more personal than usual. I mean I am often pretty personal, so some of it might seem like a normal day here at OSFEB. But what will be different is that I'm going to free write. And I'm doing this instead of my personal journalling so it will be...

Common Defenses your Eating Disorder may use…update included

Hi Everyone... For some reason I thought I would have so much more time to blog while in treatment. But hahahaa, jokes on me - treatment is hard hard hard work and updating this blog, although I wish was more frequent, has become something lower on my priority list. I do hope to change that...

Weekend Update

Today marks the end of my second week, or the beginning of my third week, in residential treatment for my eating disorder. I have been here before, in 2016. As much as you could love treatment, I loved it here. I was eager to be here and not once did I think about leaving. This...

Menu Monday, on a Thursday

Guys! Treatment is hard work. I mean duh?! right? But I am tired all the time. I have been meaning to update or blog something for a few days now and each day something happens that wipes me out emotionally. Usually in a good way. Anyways - It is Thursday, and I have so much...